MONOLOGUE

Wow! Okay, there are a lot of things to talk about on this performance. First, I’ll start with my personal feelings once I know that we were assigned to actually talk alone, not in the class but outside the class. Can you imagine talking alone at public places and what did I expect from doing that for the first time in my entire life? I kept telling my friend that it would be a total embarrassment on me. I was not really sure why such mind setting seems to emerge in my head yet I was so scared of talking alone. Maybe I was too conscious of what people might say to me. Well, I thought that Pn. Ju was right that this minor performance will actually swept away (maybe not all) our feeling of ashamed talking in front of people and yet helping us in strengthening our self-confidence regardless of people saying “Gila ke? Sakit ke tu?” seeing us talking alone.

Well, I took this a platform to build my confidence. I always wanted to talk in front people anyhow, I was lacking with the confidence to do so. So, I said to myself and believe that I can do it well. To do things well, I really need to talk on something which have a very deep and tight connection and meaningful to me. I’d decided to be my ownself and undoubtedly chose to talk about my enduring long-lasting enthusiasm; Ireland.

However, I encountered some difficulties of what to talk about since there so many things to be told and to be shown. I was ‘suffocated’ with abundance of ideas. Later, I’d drafted what to talk and I put in lines that I kept uttering to my friends depicting how significant those lines are that actually reflect on my own exact inner feelings towards Ireland; “The Ireland’s thing is in me, in my soul! It runs through my veins!”J Later, I also added on my favourite poem by William Butler Yeats, The Lake Isle of Innesfree. Then, I started practicing with the pronunciations, intonations and the styles of saying things accordingly.

During my performance, I used few suitable props that really help me in conveying my true honest feeling on Ireland where I wore my Abercrombie shirt (printed with the Irish shamrock), my Irish shamrock keychain and my 910-pages of “The Rough Guide to Ireland” book. My friends were laughing when I said “Ireland, I sayang you!” Then, when I recited the poem of W. B. Yeats, again they were laughing out loud. I don’t care if they claimed me as “mental- retarded’ or what so ever because I felt so bliss doing that. But I have to admit myself that to a certain extent I am “deficient” since I was so excited and get really keyed up on certain matters that I fond of.

Well, end of my performance, Pn. Ju said that I didn’t have the eye contact with the audience since I kept looking beyond them, maybe I’m too scared and nervous as it was the first time I was talking alone at public places anyhow, due to my favourite matter (Ireland), it did lower my anxiety level since I was talking with tonnes of buoyancy in my heart, uhh.. How bliss!